A Return Home

What was I thinking?!? There are many times I often ask myself this question. Sometimes I ask it several times each day. I had great intentions and visions of family togetherness and closeness when I first thought up my great idea to return home. I naively thought it wouldn’t be too difficult to incorporate a new career from home and oversee the schooling of my son who has Asperger’s. After all, it was just about planning and organization, right? I am a multi-tasker and most women excel at multi-tasking, so it wouldn’t be too difficult, right?

Boy was I wrong! This is the most difficult endeavor I have ever undertaken. It is hard. It is frustrating. There are times I cry. I distinctly remember when the boy figured out I was working as well as teaching him. He decided that I needed to focus all of my efforts on only him. He became an energy sucker. I taught all day and worked all night. I rarely slept. He didn’t care. I was miserable.

So why do I do it? I’m glad you asked. I do it because it is also wonderful. It is fun. It is adventuresome. I even laugh…a lot. I can’t imagine doing it any different now. It is tough at times, but the rewards have become ones that I will not do without. We have family values that we no longer let become compromised day to day.

We have all learned to compromise in order to make it happen. Sometimes my house doesn’t get cleaned. My hubby cooks sometimes. The boy has learned to let me work in the afternoon. He can have my undivided attention in the morning and evening. Sometimes my hubby lets Calgon take me away and I take long baths. Our beagle reminds us to take long walks. We laugh and we play, together as a family.

Working and schooling at home isn’t easy, but it is fulfilling. What are some of the challenges you face since returning home?

Photo provided by: Gabor Karpati

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